Positive thinking

I'm depressing myself and everyone around me.
This is not good.
I need to stop brooding on things that are thus far out of my control and instead work on the things I can do something about.

So, I've joined tamba - I can't post on the forums yet to ask questions but that might be because it says it takes 48 hours for the registration/ membership process to complete.
I've found some good stuff, admittedly anecdotal, that suggests that if I was with Doctors and midwives who were willing to "be brave" and try then I might be able to do things my way.
I have reminded myself that because I was logical and stood firm and made it clear I wasn't trying to be a mad hippy, I have persuaded maternity services to go against their normal protocols before and I might yet manage it again.
I've spoken, on the phone and on line to a lot of good friends who have offered to come over in shifts and help.
J and I have chatted about asking Mum to come over earlyish and stay til after the babies are born.

And I have written a housework to do list, so I'd better get on with it....